Elhadron watched quietly as his younger companion lost herself in her own thoughts. He didn't want to intrude, since for all her friendliness toward him, he knew he was still a stranger. The dark elf leaned back, feeling the cool grass beneath his palms. There were so many barriers between people, and even if they caused nothing but pain it would be wrong to intrude upon them, wouldn't it?
It was an old question, one that arose from Elhadron's own occasional enforced isolation. His very appearance often formed an insurmountable barrier between himself and other people, and even if they treated him with kindness and warmth, Elhadron knew that with every glance at him they were reminded that he was different.
For this reason, Elhadron often pitied half-elves. At least Elhadron knew what he was, where he fit. It meant he could choose for himself whether he fit there or not. Half-elves were given no such choice. They had nowhere to go, whereas Elhadron at least had something to go from.
It was hard to say what sort of man Elhadron would have been if he'd been born into a surface-dwelling race. If he hadn't come from the height of mercy and fallen to see the depths of depravity, would he view the flaws and darkness in himself the same way? Would he accept them, as so many surface-dwellers were safe to do?
Elhadron believed whole-heartedly that if he hadn't experienced the dark and twisted chaos of life among dark elves, he wouldn't carry the same passion for the beauty and blessings of the surface. So many people here didn't appreciate what they had, but even if it brought Elhadron meaning... that suffering shouldn't be inflicted on anyone else. They didn't deserve it. Their innocence was its own blessing, its own miracle in the midst of so much ugliness.
Better to be on the surface, where young elf maidens could stand and talk without fear to strangers, watching the leaves move and listening to the faint humming of conversations. Better to have only the small problems in a home that was safe.
This peace, though. Elhadron had no way to know how fragile or lasting it might be. Not long ago he'd thrown in his lot with revolutionaries hoping to make Elentari safe for all elves, a home for all peace-loving people. It had been a futile effort as far as he was concerned, since widespread fear and hatred of dark elves was a valuable protection against them. At least then Elhadron wouldn't have been forced to watch other elves living lives of isolation and fear.
Not here, though. For now Elhadron could pretend this place was safe and good. As his eyes scanned the crowd, they landed on a dwarf leaning on a tree casually. Even as Elhadron routinely noted that he couldn't judge this gentleman by his race, he couldn't help the tiny flash of panic bursting open in the back of his mind. Dwarves, out of any group that walked, had given Elhadron the most trouble.
His pale grey eyes were fixed on Chey as the dark elf sat perfectly still, the conversation lost in the absolute necessity of observation. Why was he here? It could be that he was in the same position as Elhadron himself, but even if that were true would it make a difference?
The peace and comfort of this afternoon might be coming to an end, but so far Elhadron had no way to know if he was really in danger. He took a long, tense breath and simply waited.